So anytime I manage to pull myself out of this hole for five seconds my Mother is the first in line to shove me back down. I think she must get pleasure out of making me feel small and worthless.
I had this great conversation with my dear friend Scott today. It made feel great! It made my day. Then I went out shopping with my sister because I desperately needed pants cause all my pants have holes in them. I also needed shoes because mine are worn out. She scolded me for everything even though my sister, who apparently has better judgement than me picked them out.
With one conversation she ruined my day and made me feel worthless again.
I can't take this anymore! I'm gonna kill myself if I have to stay here any longer. According to her way of thinking I'm too worthless to live.
I need this job I applied for SO badly. I need to get out of here. I don't know what I'll do if it doesn't pan out. I just can't stay here anymore...
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